pushing forward with balance

It seems as I get older and older all the distractions that happen everyday seem to not get to me as much as they once did. The one constant I’m learning is that distractions happen all the time – so why bother with it. A lot of that has to do with me knowing and seeing where I want to go so nothing phases me anymore. Well, let me take that back, all the bumps don’t hurt as much – is what I really meant to say. Rejection letters – Ok on to the next. Lost financing – Ok no problem. No work in the last three weeks – gotta stretch out those ramen noodle meals. Big deal.

But the question often remains – why do this to myself? I’ve had a hard time explaining it before but really I think it all boils down to vision. Off in the imaginary distance I see a place that glows. It’s a place where all my dreams, hopes, fears, and memories all blend together. I’ve unconsciously been staring at this place for a very long time – but it is only now that I know I really want to get there. I don’t know if the place is radiating or burning. But either way I’m curious.

As for all the distractions that happen everyday – it’s like your friend’s waving hand in front of you that you can’t see when you’re staring off in the distance – lost in thought.